Starting the new year is a hopeful time, we make new resolutions, goals and there is an overwhelming ‘new year, new me’ culture. However, the new year is also very emotional as we reflect upon the year before. It is undoubtedly true to say that we can try our best and have the best intentions but life can have other plans for us.
I will start by sharing a little of my story…
I am a Brisbane girl trying to juggle multiple chronic illnesses along with life. When you have a chronic condition, you will pretty much try anything to get better and I have tried so many diets, doctors, treatments, medications, classes… essentially you name it, I have attempted it. Chronic conditions are hard to handle because you are told to not let illness define you, but once you become chronically ill in many cases your illness dictates what you can and can’t do in your life.
Restrictions are made and we don’t really have much of a choice.
In 2019 I had endometriosis surgery and that’s supposed to make me better – by removing my endometriosis and stopping my periods. However, I had a bizarre development after the surgery which skyrocketed my pain. Both that and going through surgery also greatly affected my other two health conditions. My periods haven’t stopped with the merina however… I’m still hoping they will. In an effort to try stop my periods, I have had to try using strong medication because of the pain. However, this in turn made me worse and want to be sick from nausea and migraines which ensued after taking the medication.
Regardless of the confusing whirlwind I just explained, my point is, you can do everything right... You can have a positive attitude. Go to a psychologist, get training, eat the right foods, take your medication, get the recommended surgery and still be worse off then you were before.
This may sound disheartening, I know, but although it is upsetting, I’m not intending it to be that way.
I just want anyone else out there who knows how it feels to try very hard to do the right thing for themselves and their health and still be stuck to know that you are not alone.
You are not a failure and although your body isn’t being your friend right now, there is nothing wrong with who you are. For I know your struggle, your pain and your frustration, my dear friend you are not alone in this. Don’t let others bring you down or make you feel like you’re just not trying hard enough.
At the end of the day … as long as you know you’re trying your best, that’s all you need. And you can find a sense of peace in knowing you are trying your best.