A few months ago I was alone sitting in my parents room watching a game show on TV. It came to a question about the world famous painter Matisse, who only discovered his talent after battling appendicitis. This spoke to me and made me realise that yes I am in a crap situation stuck at home being ill but maybe I can make something good out of this. ** I believe this not only applies to illness but many other things we come across in life like losing your job or going through a break up etc.
|A painting by Matisse|
Since being ill over the years I grieved over my former life which although I was not 100% to begin with I was still in the realm of normal. I went through the entire five stages of grief before truly accepting and realising that I have changed and my life is going to be different. But as it is the only shot I have I am going to have to make the most of it. You have to work with what you have, and forget about perfection because that will hinder progress.
I believe a positive of being ill was that it enriched my desire to help others once I return to good health.
I always wanted to play an instrument but never had the time. I learnt back in primary school but nothing ever stuck and I didn’t appreciate it. However now I have restarted again and it’s a skill I want to keep up and hold on to.
I also got into crafts, making jewellery, dream catchers etc. you name it you can make it these days. It also gives you a sense of accomplishment when you complete it.
I also appreciate the little things so much more then everyone else.
I have learnt the value of family, friendship and love on a much deeper level. Life means more when you have others to share it with and it is important to invest time and energy into them and appreciate them.
The importance of being patient and just dealing with life and problems as they come. Living life a day at a time.
These are little things I know, and sometimes I wish for more. But remember work with what you have got. For a long time I wasn’t well enough to do craft or learn the guitar but I am feel lucky that I can now. When I was really horrible and when I have bad days I watch TV and a lot of it and when that’s too much I just rest in silence in preparation for the next day, the hope that the next day is better so I can manage something.